Wednesday, June 02, 2010

Fresh Start

So it's been just over a year since my last post. And I think I may be ready to go again. :D

A friend suggested a website to me that's having a photography challenge and you need a here goes!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Life is so fraglie.

It sucks. I've been in this world for 30 years, I've probably met thousands of people in my life. Through different stages of my life I've had different friends, some I'm still very close to, some I just see here and there and some I have not seen in years.

I've gotten to know people through my moms friends and then they lose touch and then so do I. And that is sad. Now. I never thought about it before. I mean really thought about what a risk that is. I take advantage of everyone I have met, I expect to see them again, even if it is 10 years from the last time I saw that. And that is naive. So I should treat every moment with the people in my life like it could be the last? That sounds so impossible, but really what I should do right? If I truly value that person.

So why am I being so morbid you ask? My mom called me to tell me one of the 3 boys I use to babysit...died May 7th. Now before a week ago I didn't think about him since probably the last time I saw him. He was the sweetest kid I'd ever met. Him & his 2 brothers were my favorite people to be around. I adored these guys. They are the reason I wanted 3 boys. They rocked! So last week I was talking to my mom and out of know where was reminded of Ryan and asked if she had heard from his mom and they lost contact. Bummer I thought, sure would be awesome to see what he's up to. I'm not kidding that was our conversation LAST week!

Now today he's not here anymore. I haven't been able to stop thinking about him. Life. Death. Chance. So I decided to type out my feelings. They probably make no sense but I need this and it's my blog. Ha!

I'm not sure what to make of today now. So I'm sorry to Ryan's family for their loss and I will be praying for you.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

My baby isn't really a baby anymore...

not that she was before she turned 5 but holy crap...5??? Where did the time go? I don't know and it sucks. I do feel like I've done a good job at keeping those memories alive so to speak, we all look at the scrapbooks and watch the videos from time to time. The only thing I wish I did more of was write stuff done, like in a notebook. I have a few scrap pages that have funny things they have said or pages with all the funny words they would call every day objects or people. But I don't have many details into every day life...journals really. I've said for years now that I want a real journal but do I do it. Nope! So today I'm going to start, I figure any random day is better then me saying, next Monday I'm going to start a journal. So today in about 3 minutes I'm going to find a normal PLAIN notebook put it by my nightstand and journal a page and pray that I can keep it up everyday or at least once a week. And we all know how awesome I am with keeping a blog, but maybe this will spark something. We shall see.

So I think now that my baby is 5 it's a perfect time to show a baby picture and a now picture...

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

It's coming...

a new post that is...just not yet. :D

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

What Breana means...

Shannon did this on her blog and I got curious so this is what it says about me.

What Breana Means

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

Pretty interesting how right on some of these (MOST) of these are. Actually it down right scary! :D Thanks for the fun Shan!

Click here to see What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Friday, March 21, 2008

Happy Birthday Baby Girl...

Okay I guess you're really not my baby anymore but ya know what, you'll always be my baby! I do this every year, and i'm sure everyone does...think back over the past seven years and everything you've accomplished and now the things you are doing and who you are becoming!

It amazes me that you are now into big girl movies, yoga, wanting to learn to knit and how to play golf and wanting to know how to scrap like momma, getting more into reading novels like momma rather then the kiddie books.

All these things make me sad b/c these are BIG girl things and you're leaving the little girl things way behind you. I'm hoping/praying you'll devert back to the little girl things at least every once in awhile. Some days you want to watch Sesame Street or Wow Wow Wubbzy and I get thrilled! I just want you to enjoy every single day of your childhood and not rush it!

I do enjoy watching the process of you getting older each year don't get me wrong. I love you so much baby and I can't wait to see all the things you do/learn/become this year!!!

Happy 7th Birthday baby!!!


The baby was named...
Scarlett Bea! She is absolutley adorable and I can not wait to meet her! Here is the layout I created of her...

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Soon To Be Named...

Matt (the new Papa) called tonight and said they are now calling the baby (STBN)Stabin...pronouciation not sure but it was cute they way he said it. Anyways they are in works on deciding but my vote is for Lola. Matt is working on that one I guess. :D I told him I didn't want to say my vote but he insisted I did so there it is. It in my opinion fits them. LOVE it. But honestly whatever they choose will be perfect and fit this BEAUTIFUL little angel. He sent us photos tonight and she is truely precious. I can not wait to meet this little angel and of course it brings back the baby fever, but Reed DO NOT worry. I will get over it! SERIOUSLY! I sat this b/c my loving adorable hubby annoyomously reads my blog. Love ya baby!

Anyways, Matt said they hope to change STBN to an actual name by tonight so we are all anxiously awaiting that email! I can't wait to meet ya Stabin!!! BTW I think it's pronounced Stabin! :D So cute!