My baby isn't really a baby anymore...

not that she was before she turned 5 but holy crap...5??? Where did the time go? I don't know and it sucks. I do feel like I've done a good job at keeping those memories alive so to speak, we all look at the scrapbooks and watch the videos from time to time. The only thing I wish I did more of was write stuff done, like in a notebook. I have a few scrap pages that have funny things they have said or pages with all the funny words they would call every day objects or people. But I don't have many details into every day life...journals really. I've said for years now that I want a real journal but do I do it. Nope! So today I'm going to start, I figure any random day is better then me saying, next Monday I'm going to start a journal. So today in about 3 minutes I'm going to find a normal PLAIN notebook put it by my nightstand and journal a page and pray that I can keep it up everyday or at least once a week. And we all know how awesome I am with keeping a blog, but maybe this will spark something. We shall see.

So I think now that my baby is 5 it's a perfect time to show a baby picture and a now picture...

It's coming...

a new post that is...just not yet. :D

What Breana means...

Shannon did this on her blog and I got curious so this is what it says about me.

What Breana Means

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

Pretty interesting how right on some of these (MOST) of these are. Actually it down right scary! :D Thanks for the fun Shan!

Click here to see What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Happy Birthday Baby Girl...

Okay I guess you're really not my baby anymore but ya know what, you'll always be my baby! I do this every year, and i'm sure everyone does...think back over the past seven years and everything you've accomplished and now the things you are doing and who you are becoming!

It amazes me that you are now into big girl movies, yoga, wanting to learn to knit and how to play golf and wanting to know how to scrap like momma, getting more into reading novels like momma rather then the kiddie books.

All these things make me sad b/c these are BIG girl things and you're leaving the little girl things way behind you. I'm hoping/praying you'll devert back to the little girl things at least every once in awhile. Some days you want to watch Sesame Street or Wow Wow Wubbzy and I get thrilled! I just want you to enjoy every single day of your childhood and not rush it!

I do enjoy watching the process of you getting older each year don't get me wrong. I love you so much baby and I can't wait to see all the things you do/learn/become this year!!!

Happy 7th Birthday baby!!!

Finally...

The baby was named...
Scarlett Bea! She is absolutley adorable and I can not wait to meet her! Here is the layout I created of her...

Soon To Be Named...

Matt (the new Papa) called tonight and said they are now calling the baby (STBN)Stabin...pronouciation not sure but it was cute they way he said it. Anyways they are in works on deciding but my vote is for Lola. Matt is working on that one I guess. :D I told him I didn't want to say my vote but he insisted I did so there it is. It in my opinion fits them. LOVE it. But honestly whatever they choose will be perfect and fit this BEAUTIFUL little angel. He sent us photos tonight and she is truely precious. I can not wait to meet this little angel and of course it brings back the baby fever, but Reed DO NOT worry. I will get over it! SERIOUSLY! I sat this b/c my loving adorable hubby annoyomously reads my blog. Love ya baby!

Anyways, Matt said they hope to change STBN to an actual name by tonight so we are all anxiously awaiting that email! I can't wait to meet ya Stabin!!! BTW I think it's pronounced Stabin! :D So cute!

Baby No Name...

SO excited!!! My cousin's had their baby tonight around 7pm! YAY! She weighed in at 6lbs 15oz and 20 inches and is now forever nicknamed "baby no name"! My cousin Matt, kept telling me that they were throwing around names, his wife Laurel told me a few of them, can't remember them AT ALL, they were so cute though...anyways he kept saying "we'll know as soon as we see her...um HELLO, "baby no name." TOTALLY excited to find out what they pick, I already love her and am SO excited to see this little angel.

One of the first things Matt told my uncle was that she looks just like my Tata! So cute and sad at the same time. Makes me miss him more!

Hopefully I'll be back in the AM with a name! :D

Congrats Cuz...LOVE YA!!!

I have the bestest friends...

everywhere! Thank you all for the support, thoughts, words, and also to those of you who just read this, think and pray for us! Totally appreciate it ALL!!!

Reed has put out some apps here in town and as we say what's meant ot be will happen. Just need to have patience and pray, honestly! We're doing great, had a great day together we went and say Fool's Gold totally theatre worthy! Loved it! We ordered chiense take out tonight and will probably just hand out like nerds, Reed reading Dragonlance Chronicles and me reading Digital Field Guidefor my new Nikon D40!!! WOO HOO! So excited about this and I don't even know how to use it! HA! Romantic right?! Love it!

And tomorrow Lisa comes to town!!! YIPPIE! Can't wait for a fun weekend with my favorite girl and my man!!!

Oh and Happy Valentine's Day!!!

The joy of young love...

after I last posted I mentioned I was going to help out in Rylee's class. I got to take two kids in the hall and play a "memory" game with them using their spelling words. When it came time for Rylee to come out with me I let her pick her partner and she picked Jordan or as she calls him "jordy!" all sweet and cute like. She was so funny while we were out there she was ALL smilies and giggles it was so cute. Last year she had a crush on this little boy Niko and this new crush is totally different she was to have a playdate with Jordy, she sits by him at lunch, it's crazy! She's 6!!!

So today Reed goes in to read to the class and Jordy comes up to Reed as says "Can Rylee and I have a playdate?" oh boy! I just don't know about these boy/girl playdates!

Another day this week when I was helping in the class Mrs.Hardt was moving the desks around b/c she does this like every week. Rylee and her friend Courtney were helping move the desks Mrs Hardt let them each got to pick one person to sit by so of course Rylee picks Jordy and Courtney picks a girl. (lucky brenda!) So while this is happening Mrs. Hardt is telling me that this is a love triangle Rylee and Jordy are in!!! WHAT! Again she's 6! I really pray this does not end in that drama at such a young age!!! Awww...the joy of YOUNG love!

I can't get with it...

it's been two years this month since Reed got this job. And him leaving just doesn't get easier for me. I found out today that he's basically going to be gone for 3 weeks with one day home in between. NICE! It just kills me, I know it could be worse he could be off fighting a war for 4 months at a time. But he's not and this is my actual life and honestly it sucks! Of course it doesn't suck all the time, but right now in this venting moment of mine it does.

I wish I knew what to do to make it easier to just go on with life, enjoy him while he's here and then say goodbye when the time comes, but nope I can't do that. I fight, yell, and flip out like it's his fault. UGH! And then I cry for like 3 hours. It's real fun, I'm sure you wish you were here right now, right?! ;)

I know he hates it, he misses us just as much as we miss him, but then I think of it like how bad it could it really be for him. He's alone, eating out every night and not having to deal with the girls. But then he has to deal with his boss, the client, the fact that he is alone and then of course he worry's about his crazy emotional wife ALL the time. UGH! I just pray that soon I can figure this out. Figure out how to make this work, how to just deal like Reed tells me and enjoy the time we have.

When he was at his old job and I was prego with Rylee he had to travel a couple time during that 9 months and I remember saying "I am NOT going to be one of those wife’s whose husband travels all the time!" HA! I guess I deserve it right.

I'm hoping for today I’m over it, that I vented it's out for the world to read and now I can stop crying like a baby! I have him home for 10 more days so I pray that before that is up, I can get my emotions in check and figure this s**t out or else I’m going to drive everyone crazy and no one will be happy.

I am off to visit Rylee's classroom in a few so that should lift my sprits! here's to hoping...

Not much to update...

i'm tired, exhusted really. i chose a word...believe. but i think i may just stick with all three b/c honestly my life could use help in all three of those areas. i created a layout about the word believe though, it's over at my layout blog.

the girls and i watched gameplan tonight. it was super cute, we all really enjoyed it. but at one point it made neely really sad and she started crying b/c she missed her daddy. sad. but we'll call him in the AM and she'll be all good. i hope.

sorry such a lame post but i felt the need to post something, anything. oh and i posted a ton of new creations, some old some new on the scrap blog too.

This is what being a momma is all about...

...today i surprised rylee with tickets to the stage show of high school musical, she was so excited. we went with two friends from school and had an amazing time. she really could not have been sweeter today. she ended up sitting with her friends in the row in front of us and half way through the first act she wanted to sit with me but we couldn't switch seats just yet so she wanted to hold my hand! awwww! that alone was enough to make me cry! then after intermission she asked to sit on my lap, then when she sat next to me all she wanted to do was hug me and put her arms around me. it was exactly what i needed. lately i have been feeling like we just don't mesh and today she really showed me that even though we butt heads...A LOT! I'm still her momma and she's still my baby girl and we fit. the joy i felt today was amazing. i love that girls, she rocks! here's a few photos from our sweet day...

Words Words Words...

words...they say a lot don't they and I think they have hidden meaning as well. I was catching up on Ali E's blog just a bit ago and was not suprised when I came across the yearly WORD post. I tried doing this last year but did not succed. Just didn't focus on it as much as I wanted/should have. I really want to do more with my word this year but it seems coming up with a word is much harder this go around. Right now i'm playing with a few...grow, believe, and focus. Reed thinks I should go with relax again, but i'm feeling these 3 words much more at this moment in my life.

I want to grow as a woman, friend, mother, scrapbooker and artist. Grow in all realationships and grow into ME, if that makes sense. Really figure out who I am as a 28 year old chick. I would to grow into the woman God has indtended I become. Grow.

I want to believe in myself, belive that my kids will make good choices and that they will believe in themselves. I want to believe that I am living my life to the fulliest and living up to my full potiental. Believe.

I want to focus on what is most important. Leave all the crap behind and not dwell on it. Focus on my girls, Reed and our little family. Focus on my friends and those relationships that will only get stronger with focusing on them. I want to focus on my relationship with God and where my life should be going. Focus.

I plan to sleep on this, think on it, maybe dwell on it a bit because I really want to Grow, believe and focus on the right word that will help me thoughout 2008!